We are officially hooked and in love. lol
Today's purchases:
Raspberries
Blueberries
Strawberries
Broccoli
Salad mix
Red Peppers
Greek Yogurts
Chicken Sausages
Avocados
String Cheese
Oh yeah. That's my kind of list :)
Granted, I would much rather hit up the farmer's market...I am still very happy with our trip today.
Showing posts with label plan. Show all posts
Showing posts with label plan. Show all posts
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
I want...
...to wear tall socks that fit my calves.
...to be able to sit my cup of water between my legs while driving.
...my feet and ankles to not hurt first thing in the morning when I stand up.
...to feel hott.
...to be light enough for my husband to pick me up.
...to wear the cute, stylish clothes I see on some folks.
...to shop in the regular sizes.
...to order less clothing online.
...to not be or feel like the biggest person in the room.
...to be a lasting success story.
...to be able to walk into Old Navy and wear anything I want.
...my child to see a slimmer, healthier me.
...to wear something from Victoria's Secret.
...to comfortably wear high heels or cute wedges.
...to wear an anklet.
...to see only one chin in my impromptu pictures.
...to get to ride amusement park and fair rides again.
...to fit comfortably in all restaurant booths.
...to sit in any chair and know it will hold me.
...to be able to lay on one of those tri-folding lawn chairs. (like beach chairs)
...my head to be filled with positives and hope.
...my back to not ache all the time.
...to come off of my BP medicine.
...to get my PCOS symptoms under control.
...to feel good when I step on the scale at the doc's office.
...to practice what I preach.
...to be able to jog a mile.
...to look as awesome on the outside as I AM on the inside.
...to fit in a kayak.
...to be able to wear my husband's t-shirts.
...to wear cute bangle bracelets.
...to run.
...to go zip-lining.
...to not always be wondering if everyone is noticing the fat girl.
...to lessen the burden on my legs so I will slow the developing spider veins.
...to wear a pair of boots.
...to have to get my rings resized.
...to set a good example for my child.
...my husband to get to see a smaller me.
...to stop wearing the thighs out of my pants.
...to wrap up in a regular-sized towel.
...my boobs to stick out farther than my stomach.
...my heart to not have to work so hard.
...to feel my collarbones/hipbones/etc.
...to breeze through a turnstyle without turning sideways and hopping.
...to be able to sit my cup of water between my legs while driving.
...my feet and ankles to not hurt first thing in the morning when I stand up.
...to feel hott.
...to be light enough for my husband to pick me up.
...to wear the cute, stylish clothes I see on some folks.
...to shop in the regular sizes.
...to order less clothing online.
...to not be or feel like the biggest person in the room.
...to be a lasting success story.
...to be able to walk into Old Navy and wear anything I want.
...my child to see a slimmer, healthier me.
...to wear something from Victoria's Secret.
...to comfortably wear high heels or cute wedges.
...to wear an anklet.
...to see only one chin in my impromptu pictures.
...to get to ride amusement park and fair rides again.
...to fit comfortably in all restaurant booths.
...to sit in any chair and know it will hold me.
...to be able to lay on one of those tri-folding lawn chairs. (like beach chairs)
...my head to be filled with positives and hope.
...my back to not ache all the time.
...to come off of my BP medicine.
...to get my PCOS symptoms under control.
...to feel good when I step on the scale at the doc's office.
...to practice what I preach.
...to be able to jog a mile.
...to look as awesome on the outside as I AM on the inside.
...to fit in a kayak.
...to be able to wear my husband's t-shirts.
...to wear cute bangle bracelets.
...to run.
...to go zip-lining.
...to not always be wondering if everyone is noticing the fat girl.
...to lessen the burden on my legs so I will slow the developing spider veins.
...to wear a pair of boots.
...to have to get my rings resized.
...to set a good example for my child.
...my husband to get to see a smaller me.
...to stop wearing the thighs out of my pants.
...to wrap up in a regular-sized towel.
...my boobs to stick out farther than my stomach.
...my heart to not have to work so hard.
...to feel my collarbones/hipbones/etc.
...to breeze through a turnstyle without turning sideways and hopping.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Cognitive Polyphasia...
...is defined as "the ability to hold conflicting ideas about the same thing at the same time."
Went for my quarterly visit with my awesome doctor today and had a really great conversation about the mental part of me. It was also duly noted that I am up, oh, 7 pounds since my last visit, three months ago. Ugh. I was honest. I told her that it is the way I am eating. I binge. I go waaaay over my recommended caloric range everyday. I have good intentions for a day or two, but then, all heck breaks loose. I told her I feel so out of control. I know what to do and how to eat. I know what happens when I do not. Weight Gain. Depression. Joint Pain. Mood Swings. Feeling crappy in general. Yet, I cannot seem to limit my intake of food.
She said it was not my fault.
I argued that, yes, it is.
She conceded that yes, it is, and no, it is not.
She said I have options. (hmph. doubt it.) I could consider appetite suppressants like Adipex or Qsymia. (both known to speed up your heart etc. omg.) I could consider gastric bypass. (we all know that with my psychological state, I'd gain the weight back.) I could just stop eating before I am full. I could eat a NORMAL serving of food, then stop. Just stop. Even if that nagging hungry-in-my-mind feeling is still there. Just stop. Drink some water and stop eating. Wow. What a concept. Next. (haha?) She said that for folks like me it is not easy. Even when staying "on plan", we have yet to truly reprogram our bodies to eat less and reprogram our minds to be ok with that. We think that is where I am failing.
Anyways...
She always gives me a visit summary sheet that tells about my appointment. It tells me my current vitals, my meds, etc. It is basically a snapshot of my doctor visit that day. She gave me the very detailed "notes" pages that I usually do not get. She rocks. She has nothing to hide and I try to treat her the same. On the notes page, I noticed she had put that I was positive for cognitive polyphasia.
So I googled it.
She has me pegged. Nice job doc. I am glad I finally have a name for the madness.
Now, if only I could fix it.
Went for my quarterly visit with my awesome doctor today and had a really great conversation about the mental part of me. It was also duly noted that I am up, oh, 7 pounds since my last visit, three months ago. Ugh. I was honest. I told her that it is the way I am eating. I binge. I go waaaay over my recommended caloric range everyday. I have good intentions for a day or two, but then, all heck breaks loose. I told her I feel so out of control. I know what to do and how to eat. I know what happens when I do not. Weight Gain. Depression. Joint Pain. Mood Swings. Feeling crappy in general. Yet, I cannot seem to limit my intake of food.
She said it was not my fault.
I argued that, yes, it is.
She conceded that yes, it is, and no, it is not.
She said I have options. (hmph. doubt it.) I could consider appetite suppressants like Adipex or Qsymia. (both known to speed up your heart etc. omg.) I could consider gastric bypass. (we all know that with my psychological state, I'd gain the weight back.) I could just stop eating before I am full. I could eat a NORMAL serving of food, then stop. Just stop. Even if that nagging hungry-in-my-mind feeling is still there. Just stop. Drink some water and stop eating. Wow. What a concept. Next. (haha?) She said that for folks like me it is not easy. Even when staying "on plan", we have yet to truly reprogram our bodies to eat less and reprogram our minds to be ok with that. We think that is where I am failing.
Anyways...
She always gives me a visit summary sheet that tells about my appointment. It tells me my current vitals, my meds, etc. It is basically a snapshot of my doctor visit that day. She gave me the very detailed "notes" pages that I usually do not get. She rocks. She has nothing to hide and I try to treat her the same. On the notes page, I noticed she had put that I was positive for cognitive polyphasia.
So I googled it.
She has me pegged. Nice job doc. I am glad I finally have a name for the madness.
Now, if only I could fix it.
Thursday, October 4, 2012
1650 Calories
If I want to lose approximately 2 pounds a week, I need to stick to about 1650 calories a day.
That's what MFP tells me.
That may sound like a lot of calories, especially if you are a smaller person, or are dieting yourself and do not consume as many. For someone my size, it's reasonable. In fact, compared to my "bad days" it seems very low to me. Compared to my binge days, it seems down-right cruel.
I am managing, though. For this week, anyway. The first week is always the hardest AND the easiest for me. :) Unfortunately, I am always at the beginning. :(
Proof in the pudding...
In fact, 4 days into sticking to 1650 calories has brought on pure confirmation that this is good for me. I started my period. (if you are new to my blog, read here...) Quick explanation of why this happens: Particularlly in insulin-resistant, very obese females, Estrogen is stored in fat cells. When you begin losing weight and shedding excess glucose, the fat cells you are "shedding" begin releasing the estrogen into your system. This works with my whacked out hormones to create an ideal period-causing-cycle!
Sooo... here's to 1650 calories.
That's what MFP tells me.
That may sound like a lot of calories, especially if you are a smaller person, or are dieting yourself and do not consume as many. For someone my size, it's reasonable. In fact, compared to my "bad days" it seems very low to me. Compared to my binge days, it seems down-right cruel.
I am managing, though. For this week, anyway. The first week is always the hardest AND the easiest for me. :) Unfortunately, I am always at the beginning. :(
Proof in the pudding...
In fact, 4 days into sticking to 1650 calories has brought on pure confirmation that this is good for me. I started my period. (if you are new to my blog, read here...) Quick explanation of why this happens: Particularlly in insulin-resistant, very obese females, Estrogen is stored in fat cells. When you begin losing weight and shedding excess glucose, the fat cells you are "shedding" begin releasing the estrogen into your system. This works with my whacked out hormones to create an ideal period-causing-cycle!
Sooo... here's to 1650 calories.
you WILL gain weight!
I have been watching these videos on youtube from the TLC "My 600 Pound Life" series. Wow. I have used these for...I guess, motivation. I am so afraid of doing damage to my body so severe that I slip into an immobile, depressed and hopeless state. (Afraid, I say, yet I cannot seem to do something about it once and for all. Yep, I am still trying to figure out what is wrong with me.) I am no where 600 pounds, but I am almost half way there and that is not cool. I have also been watching some from the Joy Fit Club (I think it's part of the Today Show, maybe?) and they are so inspiring.
(I have no good segue here, so I am just going to change subjects...)
I get so tired of counting points. Having to think about food all the time. I really *do* think about food all the time. I am either thinking about how yummy something is, or how bad I want to eat, etc... or I am thinking about how many points something is, how many carbs, what am I allowed to eat. It makes me crazy. I already have obsessive thoughts, and this just compounds what goes on in my head. None of that is healthy.
I have paid for WW online for 7 years now, faithfully. Every month, I have handed over my $18.95. That's $1,591.80 I have paid. How much weight have I lost in 7 years? Net 13.4 pounds. Yep. That's all. I said I have PAID for WW, not followed, faithfully. Even the times I switched to lowcarb, etc. I have always kept my WW membership.
I have changed my plan along with WW's changes. I have done WW TurnAround, WW Flex, WW Momentum, WW PointsPlus and most recently WW PointsPlus2012. I have followed these perfectly, I have followed them so-so, and there are many days I have not followed the guidelines at all.
I am feeling bitter about this. I do not know if it is the money I have wasted, the fact that I have failed so many times over, when at one point in 2005/2006 I lost 100 freaking pounds...or the fact that I am, like I said earlier, just *tired*. I am tired of tracking, I am tired of calculating points, and I am tired of giving up. I am a yo-yo. Except I am not really yo-yo-ing. You'd have to really lose some weight to do that.
I go back and forth between the LC/NoSugar thing and WW. Without rehashing my entire blog, I will just say here, that they both have benefits for me. I just do not stick with them. I cannot stick to the first one, and the second, gets old.
Can I count points the rest of my life?
Are points not directly related to calories?
(ooh, ooh, segue, finally)
One of the joy fit videos I was watching while on the treadmill the other day had a girl who had a similar story to mine and she mentioned she did an online plan. Well, I immediately assumed it was WW and I wanted to hate her for being so successful. Later, she went on to talk about myfitnesspal and the fact that it was free. Free? Well, it cannot be that great if it is free. Fastforward to me pulling up their website on my ipad and signing up. It was an easy sign up process and it is so cut-and-dry (what does that even mean?) simple to use that I immediately downloaded the app on my phone and my ipad.
I entered my basic height, weight, etc. It gave me a calorie intake number that I should stick to in order to loose about 2 pounds a week. (pbbbt.)
I logged my foods.
I went over my calories.
I had taco bell for lunch and then tried to eat very little that night in order to stay under my calorie goal.
It backfired.
I was starving.
I binged the first night.
I still entered all the food though.
When I submitted my day...a message popped up and it said:
"If everyday were like today, you'd weigh _(fill in higher weight)_ in 5 weeks."
Wow. It politely, yet boldly and straight-to-the-point told me that if I keep binging, I will GAIN weight.
That is not a surprise. It is not new information. The fact that it popped up and TOLD me that, was a new thing to me. I needed that. I felt absolutely slapped in the face after tracking my binge... but again, I needed that.
I took a giant leap today and cancelled my WW membership. After 7 years, I have found something that will "look" at me and be honest with me, but still give me the convenience of being online. I need it.
Monday, September 10, 2012
If you let yourself get off track...
I have been bad about "blowing it" sometimes. (I feel almost silly even saying that, since I am a huge repeat offender!) I will binge and/or run out of my points for the day very quickly. I tend to say "I will just start fresh tomorrow."
I am learning that, this state-of-mind tends to give me an excuse to stay OFF course.
This: "Well, I blew it today, might as well eat what I want the rest of the day."
Turns into this: "Well I messed up all day yesterday, so I will just eat bad the rest of the week and start again on Monday"
Sometimes that leads to this: "I messed up this whole week, I will just start next month."
Vicious cycle. Weight gained. Hard work, undone.
I now say this:
If you mess up, make sure the VERY NEXT THING you put in your mouth is on plan. Pick yourself right up and keep going that very day.
This is a hard lesson to learn, but a critical one for many folks.
I am learning that, this state-of-mind tends to give me an excuse to stay OFF course.
This: "Well, I blew it today, might as well eat what I want the rest of the day."
Turns into this: "Well I messed up all day yesterday, so I will just eat bad the rest of the week and start again on Monday"
Sometimes that leads to this: "I messed up this whole week, I will just start next month."
Vicious cycle. Weight gained. Hard work, undone.
I now say this:
If you mess up, make sure the VERY NEXT THING you put in your mouth is on plan. Pick yourself right up and keep going that very day.
This is a hard lesson to learn, but a critical one for many folks.
I did it.
There are many things on my "want-to-do list". I did not really do any of those things, but I did do something VERY IMPORTANT this past week.
I caught myself starting to swing. If you follow my blog, you know I have a major tendency to swing back and forth between no sugar/carbs and Weight Watchers. I will spare you the story...you can scroll and read for yourself but it has wasted far too much time of my life and done far too much damage.
Well, I felt that feeling again. I had a "bad" week, did not count my points well, then had another badweek two weeks. I started to think that WW was not working for me and that I really needed to just go back to no sugar/LC...then I would not have to count points... blah blah blah.
Stop it Christina.
Let's go back. I DID NOT COUNT MY POINTS. I barely tracked what I ate. I let that "well-I-just-messed-up-so-lets-start-over-tomorrow/nextweek-mentality" take over. I DID NOT follow program. I DID NOT hold myself accountable. WW does work. I was NOT working WW. Hmmmm.
So, after feeling sorry for myself a few days, and getting TIRED of the CRAP I was eating. I picked myself back up, dusted myself off, shook off the wavering feelings, kicked myself in the rear a bit, then forgave myself, and then, just like that...I was back on track.
Just. like. that.
Results? You betcha. Another 2.6 pounds destroyed! Down 20.2 pounds now. Sweet.
The flabbergasting point here, though, is that I caught myself before I gave up and "tried" something else.
Sweet.
I caught myself starting to swing. If you follow my blog, you know I have a major tendency to swing back and forth between no sugar/carbs and Weight Watchers. I will spare you the story...you can scroll and read for yourself but it has wasted far too much time of my life and done far too much damage.
Well, I felt that feeling again. I had a "bad" week, did not count my points well, then had another bad
Stop it Christina.
Let's go back. I DID NOT COUNT MY POINTS. I barely tracked what I ate. I let that "well-I-just-messed-up-so-lets-start-over-tomorrow/nextweek-mentality" take over. I DID NOT follow program. I DID NOT hold myself accountable. WW does work. I was NOT working WW. Hmmmm.
So, after feeling sorry for myself a few days, and getting TIRED of the CRAP I was eating. I picked myself back up, dusted myself off, shook off the wavering feelings, kicked myself in the rear a bit, then forgave myself, and then, just like that...I was back on track.
Just. like. that.
Results? You betcha. Another 2.6 pounds destroyed! Down 20.2 pounds now. Sweet.
The flabbergasting point here, though, is that I caught myself before I gave up and "tried" something else.
Sweet.
Friday, July 20, 2012
The Swing Stopped
Looking back at my May post, I am proud to say that I have not been swinging anymore. I am trudging along with my latest Weight Watchers adventure. Even Hotty Scotty finally asked me when I was going to stop torturing my body (and him) with my constant on/off/changing dieting. Coming to the realization that my issues are affecting my family...well, it impacts me far more than many other things.
I am just as obsessive about calculating my points and planning my days out as I was years ago, but I do not think that it's a bad thing, really. I have managed to not obsess about sugar and I have not been hungry all the time like I was a couple of months ago. Why? What changed? Well, when I fill my day with healthy foods that are naturally lower in sugar and higher in fiber, I seem to be more satisfied. Duh!
If I get 42 points a day (yep, I'm that big - and they are adjusted down a few) let's examine a couple of different menu options:
Example 1
Breakfast:
Tea or Coffee w/Splenda & Stevia (0)
Splash of SF caramel creamer (1)
1 pk Quaker Instant Cheese Grits (3)
1 SF Jell-o Rice Pudding Snack (2)
Lunch:
1 Arby's Jr. Roast Beef Sandwich (5)
2 pk Arby's Sauce (3)
Chobani Lemon Greek Yogurt (4)
1/2-1 cup Celery sticks
Dinner:
2 cups organic salad greens (0)
1/4 cup reduced-fat Sargento cheese(2)
4 T Kraft Light Raspberry Vinaigrette (3)
2 t Olive Oil (2)
1/4 cup Blue Cheese (3)
3 oz Pork with 1/4 c stuffing (6)
Snacks:
1 cup cherries (0)
1/2 cup frozen blueberries (0)
1 light String Cheese (2)
8 oz FF milk (2)
1 hard sourdough pretzel (3)
This menu meets all of my healthy guidelines (fruits/veg servings, health oils, dairy, etc.) AND...it is a lot of food!
Example 2
Breakfast:
McDonald's Bacon/Egg/Cheese biscuit (11)
2 Hashbrowns (8)
Large Mocha (12)
Lunch:
Pizza (3 slices of PH Medium Hand-Tossed Pepperoni) (18)
...
If you were adding up the points, you can see that I would have already gone over by 7 and this does not include dinner or snacks. Plus no healthy guidelines have been met except for the dairy from the cheese on the pizza and maybe some in the mocha. Look how high the points (therefore, CALORIES) would have been that day if eating like that continued into the evening.
It is all about decisions. Example 1 even had some "fast food". It is possible to enjoy some stuff that you really do like once in a while (I have a weird love for Arby's roastbeef, sorry!)...it's about balancing those things and not making every meal an "out" meal.
I am down 16.2 pounds. If I had just made better choices last year, it could be soooo much more. Maybe not. I just do not know. I have really been working on my head lately. Maybe I needed to go through all of this back-and-forth mess in order to really learn some good, healthy eating habits. I am nowhere near an expert, but I am definitelytrying going to learn from my own mistakes.
Some of my happy is returning. I think my BFF would vouch for that. :)
I am just as obsessive about calculating my points and planning my days out as I was years ago, but I do not think that it's a bad thing, really. I have managed to not obsess about sugar and I have not been hungry all the time like I was a couple of months ago. Why? What changed? Well, when I fill my day with healthy foods that are naturally lower in sugar and higher in fiber, I seem to be more satisfied. Duh!
If I get 42 points a day (yep, I'm that big - and they are adjusted down a few) let's examine a couple of different menu options:
Example 1
Breakfast:
Tea or Coffee w/Splenda & Stevia (0)
Splash of SF caramel creamer (1)
1 pk Quaker Instant Cheese Grits (3)
1 SF Jell-o Rice Pudding Snack (2)
Lunch:
1 Arby's Jr. Roast Beef Sandwich (5)
2 pk Arby's Sauce (3)
Chobani Lemon Greek Yogurt (4)
1/2-1 cup Celery sticks
Dinner:
2 cups organic salad greens (0)
1/4 cup reduced-fat Sargento cheese(2)
4 T Kraft Light Raspberry Vinaigrette (3)
2 t Olive Oil (2)
1/4 cup Blue Cheese (3)
3 oz Pork with 1/4 c stuffing (6)
Snacks:
1 cup cherries (0)
1/2 cup frozen blueberries (0)
1 light String Cheese (2)
8 oz FF milk (2)
1 hard sourdough pretzel (3)
This menu meets all of my healthy guidelines (fruits/veg servings, health oils, dairy, etc.) AND...it is a lot of food!
Example 2
Breakfast:
McDonald's Bacon/Egg/Cheese biscuit (11)
2 Hashbrowns (8)
Large Mocha (12)
Lunch:
Pizza (3 slices of PH Medium Hand-Tossed Pepperoni) (18)
...
If you were adding up the points, you can see that I would have already gone over by 7 and this does not include dinner or snacks. Plus no healthy guidelines have been met except for the dairy from the cheese on the pizza and maybe some in the mocha. Look how high the points (therefore, CALORIES) would have been that day if eating like that continued into the evening.
It is all about decisions. Example 1 even had some "fast food". It is possible to enjoy some stuff that you really do like once in a while (I have a weird love for Arby's roastbeef, sorry!)...it's about balancing those things and not making every meal an "out" meal.
I am down 16.2 pounds. If I had just made better choices last year, it could be soooo much more. Maybe not. I just do not know. I have really been working on my head lately. Maybe I needed to go through all of this back-and-forth mess in order to really learn some good, healthy eating habits. I am nowhere near an expert, but I am definitely
Some of my happy is returning. I think my BFF would vouch for that. :)
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Being Aware
Are you here? Are you present? Are you aware of right now? Are you sure?
I heard the most interesting thing on NCPR yesterday...
Humans are very complex beings. (That's nothing profound...) We are one of the few species that can sit and plan/calculate things in the future. Where do we want to go on vacation next year? What's for supper Saturday night? We also worry. What will happen if _____ happens? Etc. Etc.
While we are busy calculating things, planning things, and worrying about things we are not always HERE and AWARE of right now!
That really struck me.
Yes, it is kinda like the old addage "stop and smell the roses"...
Are there things in your life that you are so busy planning, or wanting to change, or worried about that you are not enjoying the things (big or small) that are going on RIGHT NOW?
I know that the reason this made me stop and think was because I suffer from this type of mentality. All of the Where, What, Why, When, How, Who... etc. leads me to not enjoying the here and now!
One example I hear often is someone complaining that their children grew up too fast. "I just blinked one day and little Tommy was already 16 and asking for the car keys..." This is why Hotty Scotty and I always try to take time to read that extra book (or 3) that B wants, or sometimes our evenings are spent on the floor of her room, playing... no television is ever turned on. We spend that extra moment holding her before she drifts off to sleep, and we let her crawl into our bed on weekend mornings. B is one little person that we are willing to set the smartphones, laptops, Nooks, etc. down for. She will not be little for long... and we do *not* want to miss this.
I am NOT saying that planning and thinking is a bad thing, in fact, the control-freak in me says quite the opposite. I do not like to "live by the seat of my pants"...however I do believe in the joy of being sporadic sometimes.
Things like body-issues, weight and weight loss, job stresses, trying to plan family things, house/yard matters, making lists, etc. all add up to taking my focus off of enjoying things RIGHT NOW.
I intend to keep stopping every-now-and-then and look around, breathe, LIVE, and yes, smell the roses.
I heard the most interesting thing on NCPR yesterday...
Humans are very complex beings. (That's nothing profound...) We are one of the few species that can sit and plan/calculate things in the future. Where do we want to go on vacation next year? What's for supper Saturday night? We also worry. What will happen if _____ happens? Etc. Etc.
While we are busy calculating things, planning things, and worrying about things we are not always HERE and AWARE of right now!
That really struck me.
Yes, it is kinda like the old addage "stop and smell the roses"...
Are there things in your life that you are so busy planning, or wanting to change, or worried about that you are not enjoying the things (big or small) that are going on RIGHT NOW?
I know that the reason this made me stop and think was because I suffer from this type of mentality. All of the Where, What, Why, When, How, Who... etc. leads me to not enjoying the here and now!
One example I hear often is someone complaining that their children grew up too fast. "I just blinked one day and little Tommy was already 16 and asking for the car keys..." This is why Hotty Scotty and I always try to take time to read that extra book (or 3) that B wants, or sometimes our evenings are spent on the floor of her room, playing... no television is ever turned on. We spend that extra moment holding her before she drifts off to sleep, and we let her crawl into our bed on weekend mornings. B is one little person that we are willing to set the smartphones, laptops, Nooks, etc. down for. She will not be little for long... and we do *not* want to miss this.
I am NOT saying that planning and thinking is a bad thing, in fact, the control-freak in me says quite the opposite. I do not like to "live by the seat of my pants"...however I do believe in the joy of being sporadic sometimes.
Things like body-issues, weight and weight loss, job stresses, trying to plan family things, house/yard matters, making lists, etc. all add up to taking my focus off of enjoying things RIGHT NOW.
I intend to keep stopping every-now-and-then and look around, breathe, LIVE, and yes, smell the roses.
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