Zipline.
Brandy.
Fair Rides.
Kayak.
Belk.
TWC.
Cryptic messages? Nah. Just some main reasons, simplified. Memorable. On post-its everywhere.
One cool chic's adventures, thoughts, and random acts of dealing with life and her weight.
Showing posts with label reasons. Show all posts
Showing posts with label reasons. Show all posts
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Saturday, May 25, 2013
#beautiful
Not.
I like the beat of #beautiful by Mariah Carey/Miguel. It's a good 2.8 mph beat on the treadmill.
However, tonight, I, once again had to remind myself that crying and the treadmill is not a good combination. Add in trying to explain to your hubby and 3+year-old why you are crying. :(
I just feel so frumpy.
And I hate it.
I cannot explain it that well. I just do not feel pretty. It sounds so whiny. So "poor-me". So I hate that too.
I have been getting my hair done. Regularly. Yep, me! I found a girl I really like that does it and does a great job. So I keep going back. It makes me feel good. I have been buying clothes that I like. I wear my fun, funky jewelry and my awesome Toms, etc. On most days, I even text my pic to my BFF. Heck, I am even eating right. Something has to give and unfortunately, I know that it is my MIND that needs the adjustment.
My mind. The hardest dang part of me.
I have decided that I am never going to be thin. I might be healthier, and that is freaking *fantastic!* but... knowing that this frumpy body will be the only body I ever have, that is pretty devastating at times. The fact that I am starting to accept that piece of it, well, double the devastation.
Mind. Body. Mind. Body. Mind. Body.
Neither is a quick or easy fix. I just have to keep at both of them.
#beautifulinsidebutwantittoshowontheoutsidetoo
I like the beat of #beautiful by Mariah Carey/Miguel. It's a good 2.8 mph beat on the treadmill.
However, tonight, I, once again had to remind myself that crying and the treadmill is not a good combination. Add in trying to explain to your hubby and 3+year-old why you are crying. :(
I just feel so frumpy.
And I hate it.
I cannot explain it that well. I just do not feel pretty. It sounds so whiny. So "poor-me". So I hate that too.
I have been getting my hair done. Regularly. Yep, me! I found a girl I really like that does it and does a great job. So I keep going back. It makes me feel good. I have been buying clothes that I like. I wear my fun, funky jewelry and my awesome Toms, etc. On most days, I even text my pic to my BFF. Heck, I am even eating right. Something has to give and unfortunately, I know that it is my MIND that needs the adjustment.
My mind. The hardest dang part of me.
I have decided that I am never going to be thin. I might be healthier, and that is freaking *fantastic!* but... knowing that this frumpy body will be the only body I ever have, that is pretty devastating at times. The fact that I am starting to accept that piece of it, well, double the devastation.
Mind. Body. Mind. Body. Mind. Body.
Neither is a quick or easy fix. I just have to keep at both of them.
#beautifulinsidebutwantittoshowontheoutsidetoo
Saturday, February 16, 2013
more reasons...
I have thought of a few more reasons to keep on trucking. Nothing spectacular, but reason enough for me...
I want...
...a scarf to fit nicely and have plenty of length left over to hang down.
...to feel more confident when I walk into a room.
...to wear a bathing suit and not be completely mortified.
...to inspire friends and family to be more healthy and fit.
...to choose to go do things instead of sometimes hide from the world.
...to hear something other than "you have such a pretty face."
That's all I have for now.
I want...
...a scarf to fit nicely and have plenty of length left over to hang down.
...to feel more confident when I walk into a room.
...to wear a bathing suit and not be completely mortified.
...to inspire friends and family to be more healthy and fit.
...to choose to go do things instead of sometimes hide from the world.
...to hear something other than "you have such a pretty face."
That's all I have for now.
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